Well, over these last three days, these paintings have been a nice little bit of therapy. I really enjoyed making them. Tomorrow, I’m going to make a dog with a wolf’s shadow. Maybe a caterpillar with a butterfly’s shadow, and I’ve even thought about making a pig with a wild boar’s shadow.
Like I said in the previous post though, it’s not enough to “Believe in yourself.” It might make you feel good in the moment, but once you go back out into the world, you might find this weighing on you:
“When you wake up in the morning, tell yourself: The people I deal with today will be meddling, ungrateful, arrogant, dishonest, jealous, and surly.
They are like this because they can’t tell good from evil. But I have seen the beauty of good, and the ugliness of evil, and have recognized that the wrongdoer has a nature related to my own — not of the same blood or birth, but of the same mind, and possessing a share of the divine.
In short, people are jerks…
And so none of them can hurt me. No one can implicate me in ugliness. Nor can I feel angry at my relative, or hate him.
We were born to work together like feet, hands, and eyes, like the two rows of teeth, upper and lower. To obstruct each other is unnatural. To feel anger at someone, to turn your back on him: these are obstructions.”
… and you have to deal with them. Lest you become an increasingly bitter jerk yourself.
So… like I said… this takes A LOT of meditation. Finding your inner strength is difficult and it is so much easier just to let yourself become that jealous, surly, ungrateful jerk who might antagonizing your life. Don’t let yourself be stuck in that situation, but don’t become so desperate that you forget everything you work for, rush into something else, and run into the same problems.
It’s time to think, “What do I have right now that if I didn’t have, I would wish I have?” (Another bit of wisdom from Mark)
When things are going wrong, it’s so easy to spiral. The best thing to do is figure out how to build yourself up. Once it’s easy to meditate and realize what you have, what you’ve accomplished, and how you’re not going to let some sniveling, kniving son of a bitch drag you down to his level and ruin everything you’ve built… then you can realize how tough you are, and what you want.
One thing that I really want is a coffee mug that reminds of that.
So I decided to make one!
I ordered mine and I’m super excited! ^_^